{"id":6649,"date":"2026-08-08T12:11:50","date_gmt":"2026-08-08T12:11:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/storylifedaily.com\/?p=6649"},"modified":"2026-08-08T12:11:50","modified_gmt":"2026-08-08T12:11:50","slug":"for-nine-years-i-wrote-my-estranged-son-a-letter-every-month-then-i-discovered-he-had-been-secretly-reading-every-one-before-sending-them-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/storylifedaily.com\/?p=6649","title":{"rendered":"\u201cFor Nine Years, I Wrote My Estranged Son a Letter Every Month\u2014Then I Discovered He Had Been Secretly Reading Every One Before Sending Them Back.\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"<h2>Part 1<\/h2>\n<p>For nine years, I wrote my son a letter every month.<\/p>\n<p>Not an email.<\/p>\n<p>Not a text.<\/p>\n<p>A real letter.<\/p>\n<p>I wrote it by hand, folded the pages carefully, put them into an envelope, and addressed it to the same house every time.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Roger Miller.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I never expected an answer.<\/p>\n<p>At least, that&#8217;s what I told myself.<\/p>\n<p>The first letter was written three months after the divorce.<\/p>\n<p>Roger was twenty-seven then.<\/p>\n<p>Old enough to make his own decisions.<\/p>\n<p>Old enough to be angry with me.<\/p>\n<p>And angry he was.<\/p>\n<p>The last time we&#8217;d spoken, he&#8217;d stood in my kitchen with tears in his eyes and said:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You chose Dad.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I remembered looking at him and thinking he didn&#8217;t understand.<\/p>\n<p>His father and I had been married for thirty-two years.<\/p>\n<p>When the divorce happened, I believed I was doing the right thing by staying neutral.<\/p>\n<p>But Roger didn&#8217;t see it that way.<\/p>\n<p>He believed I had taken his father&#8217;s side.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe he was right.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve replayed that conversation thousands of times.<\/p>\n<p>If I could go back, I&#8217;d say different things.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d listen longer.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d ask what he needed.<\/p>\n<p>Instead, I told him:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Someday you&#8217;ll understand.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He never did.<\/p>\n<p>Or perhaps I never gave him a reason to.<\/p>\n<p>After that, Roger stopped answering my calls.<\/p>\n<p>Then he stopped returning my messages.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually, everything stopped.<\/p>\n<p>So I started writing.<\/p>\n<p>The first letter was simple.<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;Dear Roger, I don&#8217;t expect you to answer. I just want you to know I&#8217;m thinking about you.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I mailed it.<\/p>\n<p>Nothing came back for several weeks.<\/p>\n<p>Then one afternoon, I found the envelope in my mailbox.<\/p>\n<p>A red stamp covered the front.<\/p>\n<p><strong>RETURN TO SENDER.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I called the post office.<\/p>\n<p>The clerk explained that the letter had been refused.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;If he refuses them, ma&#8217;am, there&#8217;s nothing we can do.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Thank you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I should have stopped.<\/p>\n<p>But I didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>The next month, I wrote another.<\/p>\n<p>Then another.<\/p>\n<p>Christmas.<\/p>\n<p>Birthdays.<\/p>\n<p>New Year&#8217;s.<\/p>\n<p>Random Tuesdays.<\/p>\n<p>I told him about my garden.<\/p>\n<p>The neighbor&#8217;s ridiculous cat.<\/p>\n<p>The soup recipe he&#8217;d loved as a child.<\/p>\n<p>I never asked him to forgive me.<\/p>\n<p>I never demanded an answer.<\/p>\n<p>I simply wrote:<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;I&#8217;m still here.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>And every month, the envelope came back.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes it took a week.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes two.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes longer.<\/p>\n<p>I kept every one.<\/p>\n<p>Nine years passed.<\/p>\n<p>Then, last winter, something changed.<\/p>\n<p>I was sitting at the kitchen table preparing the next letter when I noticed something strange about the previous envelope.<\/p>\n<p>The flap looked wrong.<\/p>\n<p>I stared at it.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d always sealed my envelopes the same way.<\/p>\n<p>Straight.<\/p>\n<p>Firm.<\/p>\n<p>The returned envelope was crooked.<\/p>\n<p>The glue had separated slightly.<\/p>\n<p>I ran my finger over the edge.<\/p>\n<p>Then I stopped.<\/p>\n<p>My heart began beating faster.<\/p>\n<p>I took another returned letter from the drawer.<\/p>\n<p>Then another.<\/p>\n<p>Same thing.<\/p>\n<p>Loose.<\/p>\n<p>Crooked.<\/p>\n<p>Resealed.<\/p>\n<p>I held one up to the lamp.<\/p>\n<p>There was a faint crease along the inside.<\/p>\n<p>A crease I hadn&#8217;t made.<\/p>\n<p>I sat there for a long time.<\/p>\n<p>Then I whispered:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Roger&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He hadn&#8217;t been throwing my letters away.<\/p>\n<p>He&#8217;d been opening them.<\/p>\n<p>Reading them.<\/p>\n<p>And somehow, after nine years of silence, I realized something that changed the meaning of every returned envelope.<\/p>\n<p>My son had been listening.<\/p>\n<p>He just didn&#8217;t want me to know.<\/p>\n<h2>Part 2<\/h2>\n<p>Once I realized Roger had been opening my letters, I couldn&#8217;t stop thinking about it.<\/p>\n<p>Nine years.<\/p>\n<p>One hundred and eight letters.<\/p>\n<p>He had read every one.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe he had read them in his car.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe late at night.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe sitting alone at his kitchen table after everyone else had gone to bed.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t know.<\/p>\n<p>And that uncertainty was almost unbearable.<\/p>\n<p>For years, I had believed my words were disappearing into a mailbox.<\/p>\n<p>Now I knew they had reached him.<\/p>\n<p>Somehow, that made the silence harder.<\/p>\n<p>Because if he&#8217;d been reading them, why hadn&#8217;t he answered?<\/p>\n<p>I pulled the letters from the drawer and spread them across my dining-room table.<\/p>\n<p>The oldest ones were yellowed around the edges.<\/p>\n<p>Some still carried the original postal marks.<\/p>\n<p>I read them again.<\/p>\n<p>The first one after the divorce.<\/p>\n<p>Then the second.<\/p>\n<p>Then the third.<\/p>\n<p>I noticed something I hadn&#8217;t seen before.<\/p>\n<p>My letters had changed over the years.<\/p>\n<p>At first, I had written about forgiveness.<\/p>\n<p>Then about memories.<\/p>\n<p>Then about ordinary things.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually, I stopped asking anything of him.<\/p>\n<p>I simply told him about my life.<\/p>\n<p>I wrote about the roses he had planted when he was twelve.<\/p>\n<p>I wrote about his father&#8217;s old fishing jacket.<\/p>\n<p>I wrote about the Christmas when Roger had stayed up until midnight because he wanted to see whether Santa really came.<\/p>\n<p>And every month, I ended with the same sentence:<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;I love you. You don&#8217;t have to answer.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I wondered whether he&#8217;d noticed.<\/p>\n<p>The next morning, I went back to the post office.<\/p>\n<p>The same clerk was working.<\/p>\n<p>I placed one of the envelopes on the counter.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can I ask you something?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Of course.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Do you remember these?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She looked at the address.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Your son?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I pointed to the flap.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Have you noticed this?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She examined it.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Looks like it was opened.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s what I thought.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She frowned.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I can&#8217;t tell you who opened it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mail can get damaged.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;But if you&#8217;re asking whether someone could open it and reseal it&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She paused.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It could happen.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I thanked her.<\/p>\n<p>Outside, I sat in my car for nearly an hour.<\/p>\n<p>I wanted to call Roger.<\/p>\n<p>I wanted to drive to his house.<\/p>\n<p>I wanted to knock on his door and ask:<\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8220;Why do you read my letters if you don&#8217;t want me in your life?&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>But I didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>Because if I was right, he had chosen silence for a reason.<\/p>\n<p>And I didn&#8217;t want to take away the one thing he still had control over.<\/p>\n<p>So I wrote another letter.<\/p>\n<p>This one was different.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t mention the envelopes.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t mention what I&#8217;d discovered.<\/p>\n<p>I simply wrote:<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;Dear Roger,<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Today I remembered the time you tried to fix my old radio. You took it apart completely, then couldn&#8217;t figure out how to put it back together. You were fourteen and so embarrassed that you wouldn&#8217;t speak to me for the rest of the afternoon.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>I wish I&#8217;d known then how quickly childhood disappears.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>I would have paid more attention.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>I&#8217;m sorry for the things I didn&#8217;t understand when you needed me to.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>I hope you&#8217;re doing okay.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Mom.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I sealed it.<\/p>\n<p>Then I stopped.<\/p>\n<p>For the first time in nine years, I didn&#8217;t put it in the mailbox immediately.<\/p>\n<p>I stared at the envelope.<\/p>\n<p>And I wondered whether Roger wanted me to keep writing&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>or whether he had been reading my letters because he was trying to say goodbye without ever having to speak to me.<\/p>\n<p>I mailed it anyway.<\/p>\n<p>Three weeks later, it came back.<\/p>\n<p><strong>RETURN TO SENDER.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>But this time, there was something different.<\/p>\n<p>Inside the envelope was a tiny piece of paper.<\/p>\n<p>Not mine.<\/p>\n<p>Four words were written in blue ink:<\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8220;I remember the radio.&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I stared at those words until my hands began to shake.<\/p>\n<p>Roger had finally answered.<\/p>\n<p>Not with a letter.<\/p>\n<p>Not with forgiveness.<\/p>\n<p>But with four words.<\/p>\n<p>And for the first time in nine years&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I knew the door wasn&#8217;t completely closed.<\/p>\n<h2>Part 3<\/h2>\n<p>I read the four words again.<\/p>\n<p><strong>I remember the radio.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>That was all.<\/p>\n<p>But to me, it was everything.<\/p>\n<p>I carried the little note around for days.<\/p>\n<p>I put it inside my wallet.<\/p>\n<p>I took it out at breakfast.<\/p>\n<p>I read it before bed.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes I smiled.<\/p>\n<p>Sometimes I cried.<\/p>\n<p>And sometimes I simply stared at it, wondering what had made Roger finally respond.<\/p>\n<p>The radio had been a silly memory.<\/p>\n<p>He had been fourteen.<\/p>\n<p>His father was working late, and our old kitchen radio stopped producing sound.<\/p>\n<p>Roger insisted he could fix it.<\/p>\n<p>He spent three hours taking it apart.<\/p>\n<p>Then he couldn&#8217;t put it back together.<\/p>\n<p>I had laughed.<\/p>\n<p>Not cruelly.<\/p>\n<p>But he had taken it badly.<\/p>\n<p>He disappeared into his room.<\/p>\n<p>I remembered standing outside his door.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Roger?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Nothing.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m sorry.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Still nothing.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually, he opened the door.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You always laugh at me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I had been surprised.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I wasn&#8217;t laughing at you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes, you were.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I told him I was proud of him for trying.<\/p>\n<p>But apparently, that moment had stayed with him.<\/p>\n<p>Now, twenty years later, he had remembered it too.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe that was what his little note meant.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe he was telling me:<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;I remember more than you think.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>A week later, I wrote another letter.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t mention the note.<\/p>\n<p>Instead, I wrote about the radio.<\/p>\n<p>I told him the whole story from my perspective.<\/p>\n<p>Then I added:<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8220;If I made you feel foolish that day, I&#8217;m sorry. You deserved a mother who understood when to laugh and when to simply sit beside you.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I mailed it.<\/p>\n<p>This time, I didn&#8217;t expect anything.<\/p>\n<p>But six days later, the phone rang.<\/p>\n<p>I almost didn&#8217;t answer.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hello?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There was silence.<\/p>\n<p>Then a man&#8217;s voice.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mom?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I couldn&#8217;t breathe.<\/p>\n<p>I knew that voice.<\/p>\n<p>Even after nine years.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Roger?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yeah.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I sat down.<\/p>\n<p>Neither of us spoke for several seconds.<\/p>\n<p>Then he said:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I got your letter.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I closed my eyes.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His voice sounded nervous.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I mean&#8230; I read all of them.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My heart broke.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;All?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Every single one.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t know what to say.<\/p>\n<p>So I told him the truth.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I thought you hated me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There was a long silence.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I was angry.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Are you still?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Sometimes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I nodded even though he couldn&#8217;t see me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I understand.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No, Mom.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His voice cracked.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t think you do.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I stayed quiet.<\/p>\n<p>He took a breath.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;After the divorce, I needed you to choose me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I closed my eyes.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;And I chose wrong.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You chose Dad.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I thought I was keeping the family together.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You weren&#8217;t.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know that now.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Another silence.<\/p>\n<p>Then Roger said something that I had never expected.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I wanted to write back.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My heart stopped.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why didn&#8217;t you?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Because I didn&#8217;t know how.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then why send them back?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Because if I kept them, I knew I&#8217;d eventually answer.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t understand.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;So you returned them?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His voice became quieter.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Because I wanted you to know I was still angry.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I looked at the stack of returned envelopes on my table.<\/p>\n<p>Nine years of silence.<\/p>\n<p>Nine years of letters.<\/p>\n<p>And suddenly, I understood.<\/p>\n<p>The returned envelopes weren&#8217;t rejection.<\/p>\n<p>Not entirely.<\/p>\n<p>They were the only way Roger knew how to communicate.<\/p>\n<p>He had been saying:<\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8220;I can&#8217;t talk to you yet.&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>But he had never said:<\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8220;Stop writing.&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I whispered:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I wish you&#8217;d told me.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I wish I could have.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Then he asked:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Can I come see you?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I covered my mouth.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;When?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Whenever you&#8217;re ready.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He laughed softly.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s what you always say.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I smiled through my tears.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Maybe I finally learned something.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;To let you decide when you&#8217;re ready.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>There was another silence.<\/p>\n<p>But this one felt different.<\/p>\n<p>Not empty.<\/p>\n<p>Not final.<\/p>\n<p>It felt like the beginning of something neither of us knew how to name yet.<\/p>\n<h2>Part 4<\/h2>\n<p>Roger came the following Saturday.<\/p>\n<p>I knew his car before I saw him.<\/p>\n<p>I had imagined this moment so many times that I thought I would know exactly what to say.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>When he knocked, I stood in the hallway for several seconds before opening the door.<\/p>\n<p>He looked older.<\/p>\n<p>Of course he did.<\/p>\n<p>Nine years had passed.<\/p>\n<p>But when he smiled nervously, I could still see the fourteen-year-old boy who had once taken apart my radio.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hi, Mom.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Hi, sweetheart.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He stepped inside.<\/p>\n<p>Neither of us hugged.<\/p>\n<p>Not yet.<\/p>\n<p>We sat at the kitchen table.<\/p>\n<p>The same table where I&#8217;d written hundreds of letters.<\/p>\n<p>Roger looked around.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You still have this?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Everything.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I figured.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>For a while, we talked about ordinary things.<\/p>\n<p>His job.<\/p>\n<p>My garden.<\/p>\n<p>The weather.<\/p>\n<p>Anything that wasn&#8217;t the reason he had come.<\/p>\n<p>Eventually, he looked toward the drawer where I kept the returned envelopes.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Do you still have them?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;All of them.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I opened the drawer.<\/p>\n<p>He stared at the stack.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t know you&#8217;d kept them.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why wouldn&#8217;t I?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He picked up one envelope.<\/p>\n<p>His name was still written in my handwriting.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I read this one.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He pointed to the oldest.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What did it say?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You told me the tomatoes were terrible that year.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;They were.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;They were actually good.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You weren&#8217;t here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He looked down.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I read that letter three times.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I became quiet.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Because you wrote about ordinary things.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He swallowed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It made me feel like I still had a place in your life.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>My eyes filled with tears.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You always did.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I didn&#8217;t feel like it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He looked at me.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s what hurt.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m sorry.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>This time, he didn&#8217;t immediately answer.<\/p>\n<p>Then he said:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know if I&#8217;m ready to forgive everything.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You don&#8217;t have to.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;But I don&#8217;t want to be angry forever either.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I reached across the table.<\/p>\n<p>He looked at my hand.<\/p>\n<p>Then, slowly, he placed his hand in mine.<\/p>\n<p>It was the first time I&#8217;d touched my son&#8217;s hand in nine years.<\/p>\n<p>I started crying.<\/p>\n<p>He did too.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I missed you,&#8221; he whispered.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I missed you every day.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He squeezed my hand.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Then he looked toward the stack of letters.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Are you going to keep writing?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;If you want me to.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He thought for a moment.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Maybe don&#8217;t send them.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I raised an eyebrow.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Then how will I know you&#8217;re reading them?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll know.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He stood and walked toward the door.<\/p>\n<p>Then he turned around.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Mom?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yes?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll come back next Sunday.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I nodded.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll make dinner.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;What are you making?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Your favorite.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He smiled.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You still remember?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I laughed.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I remember everything.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He opened the door.<\/p>\n<p>And before he stepped outside, he turned back.<\/p>\n<p>This 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